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Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Perhaps a more formal introduction?

     I wanted to truly introduce you to my friends that will most likely be starring in this blog over the summer, since I obviously can't do that I want to describe each person more fully so that you can gain a more clear picture of where I am coming from.
     -And naturally I have switched up the names for anonymity sake-

    Caleb; He's only slightly taller then me. (I am a freakishly tall girl standing at five foot eleven & a half) We have both fought over who is taller for quite a while but it was settled just the other day. He has short dark brown hair that is a bit curly, but it's cut short and gelled. He has dark brown eyes and has an extensive knowledge of technology. He is full on supporting Microsoft, if you even give apple one complement he will shut you down. Haha! He's quite the debater too; so he's not too fun to fight with because he never shuts up so it's hard to win. He does think things through and is most definitely a wonderful friend.
     Melody; She has beautiful long strawberry blonde hair and amazing green eyes. She is extremely skinny and eats so much too! It's hardly fair! She can eat an entire pizza by herself in one sitting and still remain the skinniest girl I know. She also has the cutest freckles, scattered across her face and she has a stunning smile. She is just as spastic as me and we definitely have some fun times. She is incredibly talented with music, she plays the piano and sings like none other. We have been friends since preschool and we used to fight a whole lot in elementary school, however those make for good jokes now(:
     Faye; she, as well as Melody, is drop dead gorgeous. She has dark green eyes and long dark brown hair. She is tanning nicely over the summer and has a gorgeous smile. She's always been an amazing friend, always someone I could vent to. However lately there are things that even she doesn't know. Namely majority of the things that I write on this blog. Nonetheless though, she is beautiful in looks, personality, and friendship. She is an amazing dancer and is on the high school dance company.

There are many more people that you will hear about, namely my family and other friends. However I felt that these characters needed to be more clear. Perhaps I should describe myself more? As of the moment I won't but if anyone requests so I will.

Enjoy you're day, and be sure to find beauty in it(:

Sincerly; Kristabel

Friday, June 10, 2011

Drama Within 24 Hours...

     So yesterday we came back home for the summer to pack up our house. It's been really weird to tell the truth, I'm insanely used to my grandparents house and I feel like everything is in the wrong spot. However it's still crazy good to be home(:
     So this summer I hope to keep this blog up to date, even though I know that no one really wants to read it anyways. It's just a good way for me to write things out. It helps me think through situations better when I actually have to write it down.
     So before I begin, you should probably meet three vital people that you will most likely hear about. Meet Melody; we have been friends since preschool. She is involved with music a lot, she is amazing at piano and has a beautiful voice. We both can get pretty crazy & we always laugh at each others stupid jokes(: I'd also like you to meet Faye. Faye and I have been friends, just like Melody, since preschool. She is an spectacular dancer and extremely gorgeous. She's one of my most mature friends and I vent to her about everything! Except lately that is, since I haven't been around. She is one of my best friends and she is just simply amazing(: & last but certainly not least, I'd like to introduce you to Caleb. My best guy friend ever. We've known each other for four years and had talked, but only with in the last year have we become super good friends. He's a computer nerd, but just by his knowledge. He's looks and personality would never make you think otherwise.
     I remember while I was in the hospital he would text me, and call leaving messages. He's was really the only friend who even tried to keep in contact me as I left for treatment & as much as I hate to admit it, but it is vital to these stories, I have liked him off and on through out our friendship.
   
    So now that you have met some important people, I'll give you the first layout. I liked Caleb, but wouldn't admit it. Melody liked Caleb and she wouldn't admit it either. Then we both told each other that we liked him, then since I was away from home I suppose you could say that he got closer to her. Which was okay though, because two of my best friends were happy(: and it's not like I really liked him all that much.
     However, things got complicated when I came back home for a visit. It was just for a weekend because I still had doctor appointments and what not, but I had managed to make it down for my schools prom & he had asked me(: after that night, I wasn't quite sure how I felt about him. I knew that I did like him but I knew how him and Melody were. So I put my feelings aside and watched them become more of a couple. I was happy for them, they were both happy. So who was I to complain?
     But last night, disaster struck. I hadn't even been home 24 hours and was already stuck in the middle of drama. Me, Melody & Caleb had went to a friends house to hang out with some other friends. I could tell that something was going on with them, they were just different. She wasn't as clingy as she normally was around him & he was being crazily more flirty with me.
     After the party we went to the park and we were watching a movie on Caleb's laptop when he told us that it was almost his curfew. So I got off the playground and waited awkwardly at the car while both of them were still on the playground out of sight. I knew something bad was happening because I had seen how frustrated and stressed Melody was from earlier. Eventually they both left the playground and Melody stood by the drivers door as Caleb got some papers he had left in the back seat and started walking home. It was probably in the top ten most awkward moments ever! Then he left, and Melody got in the car and broke down.
     He had just broken up with her.
     On the play ground.
     WITH ANOTHER FRIEND THERE.
     I think that timing was horrible on his part! It just made it for one heartbroken girl and one awkward friend left in the middle. I comforted Melody as we drove home, but I saw her today and she's still really confused. It's hard for me too because I don't want to have to take sides and they are both really important to me. I know that things will work out for both of them, and that it's just life. However as of the moment, I'm stuck in between both of them.

     I'm not even sure if that story made much sense, but I do feel a whole lot better talking/typing about it. It's not even my problem and I still stress over it, just as much as they are.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

I'll just fill you in on the basics...

     Hi, I intend to keep this blog anonymous because I don't tell all my friends what truly is going on, and I would hate to have them find out online. My twitter account is @KissTheTeen where I send out quotes and such. But here and twitter are the only place where people really hear details of my life.
     So right now, there is so much crap going on my life that I can't explain it all in deep detail. So I'll just write a list.

-Two years ago my parents suddenly divorced.
-Two of my older siblings left the country
-I got diagnosed with a rare blood disease
-I moved from home into my grandparents house to start treatment. (Their house is closer to the hospital where I received treatment)
-For treatment I went through Chemotherapy, recieved a bone marrow transplant from my little sister and spend a whole month in the hospital.
-We though that after I was released from the hospital I would be able to go home. But that wasn't the case. I've lived the last 10 months away from home.
-Sometime during my treatment the divorce was finalized and we lost our house due to foreclosure; my dad refused to pay the mortgages he put on.
-We tried to figure out a living plan while I still attended weekly doctor appointments.
-My Grandpa offered one of his four bedroom, two bath rentals to our family of eight people.
-The rental is here where I currently am, away from my home where I grew up my entire life.
-This summer, (tomorrow) we move back to pack up our house, say goodbye, and leave for good.
-Come to find out the people in the rental right now had signed a three year contract, and we thought it was only a year one.
-We have to keep looking for a house while we go home to pack up everything.
-I'm scared to go home. All my friends have changed. I've changed. Nothing is the same.

That's just the quick layout of the past two years of my life. I know that this is only my side of the story, but I intend to tell what I can. Because this is the only place where I feel comfortable confessing how hellish the past two years of my life have been.